let's get physical

I want to find a sport or a physical activity that will strengthen my body.
I just want to feel as if I can take on anything that life throws at me.
I don't want to be taken by surprise and left with no choice because I'm incapable of doing what is asked of me.
I want to be ready.

downer

Been feeling down at the moment.
The failed relationships between my ideas and my skills always gets to me...

speak

this year I’m planning to make a video blog diary.

I’ve never been the one to talk
nor the one to jump in front of a camera
but I think it will do me good.

I’ve always kept everything inside of me,
or at least the things that matter,
or at least I think they matter.

I’ll still continue to write
but i think there is something cathartic
about speaking out,

of releasing,

of letting go.

It’ll be healthier.

Plus, I think speaking out will enable me to harness my speech.
Like I've said before, I'm not one to talk.
I've always felt a little strange talking out loud and in long periods of time.
Probably because I'm used to staying in my head then out.
I hope with this blog I gain better footing in my communication skills.

I want to be able to converse better and in a more intelligent manner.
But before I do that I need to learn how to talk.
I mean you can't exactly run if you can't stand.
Baby steps is the way to go.

I'm planning to get a pocket dictionary over the weekend, maybe even a thesaurus.
I really want to get better at this. I want to speak my sister, like Rina.
I don't want to second guess my intelligence just because I can't say what I think.
I want to be as intelligent as Ezra Miller.
Ok, maybe that's quite far fetched but I at least want to get my point across;
something I think I can't do very much.
I'm often nervous when I talk because, admittedly, I'm not used to it.
My life has been spent more in silence than with the spoken word.

I want speak out.
It's about time I did.

The New Year

2012 seems to be having a slow start.
Like my brain has just woken up from sleep: empty and dragging.
Not that its a bad thing.
Just a realization,
nay,
an observation.

I am thinking that now is the perfect time to type down my New Year's Resolutions, though I do remember writing it down before (probably lost it), only because I am currently thinking of making one right now.

No time like the present.

So drum roll please!
Here ye is my New Year's Resolutions, 2012 edition.
This will not be in the order of importance, rather, it will be in the order of the spontaneous spewing of thoughts.
Random, in layman's terms.

so here goes:

MY RESOLUTIONS FOR 2012:
1. Draw everyday
2. Practice drawing like a maniac!
-Anatomy of humans
-Anatomy of animals
-Flowers, shrubbery, and plant-like things o_o
-Still life
-Practice curves and lines
-Practice Cross-hatching
3. Get back into painting
-Learn and master watercolors!
-Learn Goache!
-Practice oil painting!
-Practice acrylic painting!
4. Try to make at least two artworks a week
5. Study and read as much about anatomy
6. Study and read as much about art
7. Read more: one book a month
8. START DANCE AGAIN!
-look for a ballet studio and take classes
-take the Airdance contemporary summer workshop
9. SAVE money
-try to save at least P300 per week
-put in around P1000 in the bank per month
10. Try not to spend on clothes
11. Do more Art projects
12. Join Art contests
13. Do more walkabouts
14. EXPLORE MORE
15. Every now and then take the LRT/MRT and explore a new place
16. Be braver
17. Be more confident
18. Speak from the diaphragm and not from the throat: meaning louder
19. Think before you speak
20. Practice speaking by reading books aloud.
21. TRAVEL
22. Don't over think things
23. Get myself and my art out there.
24. Talk more but try not to be so random. Very hard to do haha
25. THIS IS THE YEAR OF INVESTING IN MYSELF (my physical and perhaps my spiritual wellbeing):
26. Get my skin clear
27. No rubbing of eyes
28. Floss, brush (for no less than 3 mins) and mouthwash.
29. Get glasses some lenses
30. START EXERCISING! Blast that butt into the air! Get those arms some muscle!
31. GET UP TO 115-120 lbs.
32. Wake up early (at least 9am)
33. Sleep early (try 10... fine 10:30)
34. Drink milk every night
35. Eat fruit every chance I can get
36. Don't be afraid of baring yourself and have closer relationships with people and friends.
37. Reestablish friendships. Make an effort to keep them.
-Don't be afraid to call/text/talk/invite to hang out any of my friends
-Just do it!
38. Go out more.
39. Say yes more.
40. Learn to say no when needed to.
41. Go against Laziness. Just do it. It won't hurt.
42. Post more in Schizophrenic colors
43. Make Posters and postcards in my free time
44. Do my tote bag businesss!
45. Learn how to do screen printing
46. Be more active
47. Sing more
48. Pray more and listen at mass time :P
49. Make more effort in showing my love for mom.
50. LESS INTERNET!!! Draw/read/walk instead
51. Don't be so mean to yourself :)
52. Get my hair blue at least once this year




That's all I can think of for now :P
I probably will add and emit every now and then.
'Til next time.