Alone.

I'm quite scared.
I feel as if I'll disappoint every potential man who's interested in being the other pea in the pod.
I feel as if I'm not very likable; probably because I don't know who I am; making me potentially dangerous in some aspects.
I fear that I will never be loved. I fear that I will never be loved whilst I love in the dark recesses of my mind. Oh how utterly dramatic.

It's scary though. The idea of being alone in a world of billions. Being an island when you can be whole continent. It a scary thought. That word.

Alone.

Scary indeed.

A fate I fear is what is destined to me.

Nobody knew

it started off as something new
just met
lost my breath
though i barely knew you
and i'm sad to say that i still do
i wanna talk
i wanna laugh
please tell me everything
please tell me what it is that you're thinking
maybe it's too obvious
guess it's hard to open up
and to give it my best
i feel this because you're losing interest
i'll wait for summer days and the moonlight rays
when the time will be just right
i hope i won't see fade that beautiful smile that you made
i'll make you talk
i'll make you laugh
i'll do anything
just please tell me what it is that you're thinking
but until that day please don't walk away no
i'll show you everything
just let me in
let it begin
and then when you listen
you'll hear nothing and that's ok because there'll be nothing left to say do you hear me?
good
cause i've said all there is to be said


A song by Never Knew. A band I’ve never heard of before and a song I’ve never listened to. I saw the lyrics and it hit me. Quite apt I might say; quite apt indeed.

Nobody knew you were losing interest :(

ever so

I'm hurting
Ever so slightly

I can't read you
I can't read you as easily I do an open book

I can't read me
A novel I can't seem to decipher

A dysfunctional disease it is,
my blindness

I walk around with my eyes closed
my mind opened
my heart shut

I walk in darkness
blind
and
cautious
and we all go bump in the night

I hit
and I miss
I hit
and I missed

I'm hurting
I'm hurting
Ever so slightly
Ever so

And the thing that hurts the most
Is the possibility that you have no idea
No clue at all

You're blind
I'm blind

We all go bump in the night

and still

I'm hurting
ever so slightly
ever so