So, going through my list of posts, this one was something I wasn't able to publish. It would be an injustice to my past self to not give this post the light of the day it deserves. I'm not entirely sure if I finished this post. I don't really remember anymore. I'm not sure when I started writing this but I figured this was written late last year; my last term.
So, here it is. My past self making an appearance in the present.
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I'm not exactly sure how I feel being back here again.
Writing is a muscle I've always had a hankering to 'buff up' so any opportunity to do so is a good thing. On the other hand, this blog has developed a rather depressing tone over the years. I only seem to write in it when I am in some depressing state. Sadly, I'm writing today only to reinforce that miserable truth.
Though this blog has been relieved of my sad, pathetic woes for around 4-5 months it doesn't necessarily mean I was. A lot of things has happened to me since my last post, and yes, by 'things' I mean the ones shadowed by clouds and surrounded by dead plants and 81 black cats. Exaggeration? Maybe. But sadness can never really be exaggerated when you're in it. When you feel an exorbitant amount of bad energy you don't really bother to do the measurements.
So now I shall take the task of giving a flashback head on. I don't know if I should be happy that my sorrow is what fuels my writing prowess but whatever floats my boat I guess. Anyway, as I was saying.
Let's start from the beginning shall we? Or in this case the semi-recent past.
I am Anna dela Rama taking up AB Multimedia Arts and I am a senior senior. Basically what that means is that I am in my 5th year of college. Why the stretch?
Well, two terms ago I took PROJ1. PROJ1 is basically phase one of production for my thesis. Long story short my product wasn't enough to get me endorsed for defense thus meriting an R. Since PROJ1 is a prerequisite to PROJ2, which you cannot take together in one term, that instantly adds 2 terms on my ledger. Not good.
I may have not mentioned this before in this here blog but I was also under scholarship. My scholarship, when tailored to my course, pretty much goes for three years and two terms with an allowable one term extension. The term I took my PROJ1 was the term I was expected to graduate. When I was in third year I already planned out on taking that extension, what I didn't plan was failing my thesis. Failing my thesis means that I will have a term that won't be under the good graces of my scholarship. Not good.
So of course since I failed PROJ1 necessary adjustments had to be made. I had to adjust my schedule for the next term since I had previously enlisted for PROJ2 having expected to pass. Long story short they ran out of slots. Which means I couldn't take PROJ1 the next term and I would have to bump the subject up to the term after the next. Not good.
I ended up taking three subjects last term: BWPHOTO, ORDEV-C and PORTFOL. Black and white photo was great even if it was at 8 in the morning. I was able to take photos with black and white film, which was just divine, and I was able to learn how to develop film in the darkroom, which is just dandy! Plus it was the type of class that didn't take too much effort outside of class. I mean the topic in itself is more like a fun activity than a boring old classroom topic.
Ordev-C was also a class that didn't take too much to tender. Basically it's a "class" that required you to go to a certain number of seminars regarding work and business and the so called realities of the real world (was that too redundant?). Anyway you pretty much had to attend then make some reflection papers about it. Pretty easy right? I shall rebut that when the time is right.
Anyway, though I didn't get a slot for my PROJ1 for this term, which should be a downer, it was actually a blessing ini disguise. Now comes PORTFOL. PORTFOL is basically my portfolio class and what you do there, basically, is make your portfolio, create your business card, fix your resume and, drum roll please, make an exhibit with your class. Sounds easy when you put it down into four commas. So in class we made our portfolios and showed it to our professor. After having done our portfolios comes the brainstorming of our class exhibit. Sir decided to make me the creative leader. Though I was extremely flattered and honored I was also dreading it. Immensely. Not only that, being the creative leader of my class I was also placed in the creative team of the whole batch exhibit. Which was a big thing. I ended up making the concept for the Multimedia Arts Festival poster, which I'm quite proud of and a bunch of other stuff.
Since I don't really want to go through the ordeal of going back into every detail the process, I'll just go and add those 'long story short' phrases to spruce things up.
So.
Long story short, this term ended up being the most stressful term I've ever had in CSB. And I've had a lot, believe me. But as much as it was stressful it was fun. I made new friends (this being my class), had a new crush (which of course I will never be in the same league of buuut isn't life of a loser introvert always like that anyway? hahaha hmmm...), spent time with my awesome bros, cried a lot, stressed a lot, didn't sleep a lot, lost a lot of weight (not good by the way), learned a lot of stuff, ate in new places and basically, had a really good experience. Very good.
What's not good though? I failed my ORDEV-C class. How in the world you ask would I fail probably one of the easiest classes that could ever fall on my lap? Well I was very, very preoccupied with my PORTFOL class that I was not able to give my reaction papers on time. My very anal professor did not accept it even if I attended all the required seminars and made all the reaction papers. And he said my reaction papers were too short thus meriting me a grade less than passing. As much as I would like to give the sensors a run for their money I would just like to say to my teacher, I don't like you. I don't.
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