Not again

I need a distraction from myself, from my insecurities, from my doubts. It's devouring me again. I don't want to go back there. I need to find a distraction.

I look at myself and I see nothing. My dreams seem to slip past me and it's all because I stop myself from feeling I deserve them. I can't seem to move.

I just need to jump.
I need a distraction.
I need it now.