thoughts and musings

Sometimes I just wish he would talk to me.
Sometimes I think he doesn't want to.
Sometimes I think he looks down on me;
that he thinks I'm strange.

Sadness.
I fear that there will be no one in this world who will truly understand me
and accept me for who I am.
It scares me a bit.

~Forever alone.

I feel sad how I've never really found someone who would make me want to truly show who I am
Though I am scared to peel away all the defense mechanisms.
Strangely enough, I actually don't know what my 'true self' looks like.

hmmm
sigh
Never have i found someone that is truly interested in knowing who I am.
No one has understood me.
So of course, I try to fit in, try to adapt to mannerisms and acts I don't usually do.

Sometimes I wish someone thought like me just so he could see what I see and feel what I feel and he would then understand me.
So that I won't feel so alone in the world.


-December 17, 2010