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my heart is heavy

my heart is crushed

my hope is lost

my hope is gone

there's a fork in the road

and my mind is freaking shit

i'm so confused i don't really know what to do

i want to cry so much

but

i feel like i'm not supposed to

that if i do

i have failed some invisible rule

a rule set on stone

long before i was born

i want to cry

but i can't

my heart tears open

i need someone

i need some help

but i can't seem to ask for it

i can't speak

i can't listen

i can't think

i can't move

i just

can't

i want to cry

so much

so much

i want to cry

but i'm scared to

i want to cry

i want to cry

i need a hug

but i'm afraid to ask for one

i'm afraid

and i think i'll always be

i am lost

and i think i'll always be

..........

i'm a mess

and i can't seem to write a decent entry without sounding so fucking redundant.

SHIT

FUCK

how's that for breaking the mold?

my soul cries in desperation

i can't seem to go back and ask for help from Him

i'm too ashmed...

i walked out on Him...

what gives me the right to go back and ask for more?

shit me

fuck it

i want to cry so bad

but i don't think i deserve to...